my life these days..

My life is damn weird these days. Just recovered from several illness and then a break up. Then i keep on breaking or losing my things. Lets just say, I am going through a really bad phase.

There is a time in everyones life when they start learning about the real face of the world and how much hypocrisy in it. Its like no matter wherever you go, there is a politics going on between people which they hide behind all their smiles and sweet nature. Its frustrating to see people doing bad things and getting away with it while you get into so much trouble for doing a very silly thing just coz you dont have the power.

You feel tired of all the fakeness around you and start getting frustrated. You keep on wishing the situation will change and one day you give up and start getting depressed. You lose your faith on the world and the people around you. Because no matter how much love you give to them, people dont care about you a bit. And when you get in a tight spot, no one will be there for you.

I feel awful these days and feel like taking a break from the world. But no, I can't do that. I wanna be a fighter, you one someone who can take life and grab it by neck and take it on. Or probably kick it anime style!! ;-)

My battle with chicken pox..

Ok, i just successfully recovered from chicken pox..and no, I didn't have broncho-pneumonia as many were telling me I might have.. First days were aweful.. The pain and suffering.. Only the first few days though.. Oh yes, and the medicines.. I calculated, I had Rs.200 worth medicines per day.. I hate swallowing tablets, you know.. Gimme any tonic, no matter how bad people find its taste, I always seem to like it.. But pills were never really my thing.. I know people like to stick to pills better.. But I had been exceptionally weird from the rest of the world since I was born so I guess its no big deal.. After the first 3-4 days, the physical pain was gone.. I was left with being isolated from the rest of the family.. Well, it was a precautionary measure coz my bro has his Annual exams coming up and we dont want him to fall sick now.. So, here I was left all alone in the first floor with the TV and the computer for company.. only time I saw my mom was when she gave me meals.. Horrible life, I am telling you.. T_T So, after a few days I started going totally nuts.. One day I was feeling like killing everybody I know.. Even cute little puppies and kitties..( I know, that was cruel).. Well then, eventually I recovered.. I went out and collected my voter id card..(yay, now I can take sim cards by my name).. but seriously speaking man, the condition of the Government offices are so darn pathetic.. They should fire all those people for not being sincere.. >_<>

I would like to tell you guys about my chinese friend. His name is Aijun. I love talking to him. Its so much fun to know about a new culture, you know. You get to know a lot about stuffs. And we talk about our social life too. And guess what, we have got the same birthday too. No wonder we have got so much in common. Right now, he is online and I am talking to him. Heehee. I will ask him to read my blog after that.. Hope he does..

My new year resolutions..

Every year i take some new year resolutions..and every year i break them..Yet this year I am about to take some and pray that i stick to them..*crosses fingers*

1. I will try my very best to improve my grades and learn about stuff..
2. I will learn Japanese and a new programming language i guess..
3. I wont let others affect my mood..no matter how much my friends are having mood swings..or how much my boyfriend is ignoring me..and cold to me..everyone needs their own space and i should respect that..

Well, thats about it..i should make too many coz that way it will be too hard to stick to them.. :) ENJOY!!

My weird dream..but a nice one too..

Cant believe I am writing after so many days. Actually, I am not going through very good times. Thats kinda slowing me down. But exams were better than last time. Lets see what happens.

I was having a really bad stomach problem during the exams. That was also making me have really weird dreams. Srij asked me to write about one of them. So, here it goes..

Me,Srij and shriya is walking along a dark narrow lane. Its night and the atmosphere is almost spooky. But wait, its not a ghost dream. Suddenly Shriya pointed at the corner of the gali and said,"There, there is the khul ja sim sim cave". We all went near and muttered "chiching faak"(thats the bong for khul ja sim sim, in case you dunno). Next moment we find ourselves inside the cave with loads of expensive stuff. After spending some leisurely hours only chatting and eating and doing nothin, we got out only to be chased by some street kids. We ran and ran until we find ourselves in front of the cave again with a huge bag of money!! Srij has started panicking and I am about to have a nervous breakdown. Srij said, "Lets hide the money in the cave, and lets get in there..That way they will never find us". And somehow that time Shriya has disappeared. We both muttered "Chiching faak". Nothing happened. We panicked even more. The goons were getting really close. And somehow the street kids have turned into big fat rogue men. I called up Shriya. She said she has changed the password of the cave coz it was too apparent. Srij is like,"Shriya ta na, sob somoi pakami kore". Before i could ask her the password the line got cut. And i also woke up!!