Just a random thought..

You can spend years with a person and suddenly they would do something so strange that it leaves you wondering whether you knew that person at all! Its weird how people get brainwashed and manipulated and influenced so easily, mostly by people who are close to them and start losing their own personality. And I guess its not always a person who influences them, sometimes its situations, money or lack of it.. but whatever it is, losing your own identity and getting moulded into something else, more often something worse, is not good and certainly not fun for the people who cares about you but cant do anything but be mere spectators.

Alright, completely different issue but I realized I hardly ever blog when I am happy.  I only blog when I am confused and bothered. Does that make me a sadist? I wonder… :-/

End or a new beginning..

I am tired of saying that its been a long time since i wrote last, so I am gonna skip that this time.. As far back i can think i remember myself longing for a personal room of my own, I used to watch this serial called Clarissa, this girl used to have a room with her own decorations n personalized stuff.. and i envied her. Then finally after got a room of my own. and then i started longing for moving out of home, having a place of my own and starting a new life. And now, finally, after all these years, it is time for that and while standing on the crossroads of my life, I am confused.

In spite of my desire to move out and start a new life with new freedom and new challenges, I just simply can't make myself believe that this is it, I am really going away from my friends, family for good and we might meet up and spend a few day together later, but it will never be the same again. This blog post is dedicated to all those people i will miss so much once I am away... Mommy and daddy, I cant really explain how much or what exact i will miss about them, its just that, i know it will be so hard without them.. then my bestest friend is the whole wide world.. srij and shagu.. I have been such dummies over years n have bothered them n drove them crazy by my whining to no extent but they never stopped listening to me.. pri and shriya... who has always stayed true to our friendship when people has come and go in our lives, and we have never failed to hav fun together! My college friends shama, shubha and mona from whom i never expected the love and care and friendship I got.. simididi, i will miss your cooking and sharing all my secrets with her.. and will miss fighting about women rights with joydada and beating him up.. and my closest guy friends who changed my opinion about men... kuntal, surajit, debu, debaditya, debojyoti and arka and soham too.. It will get lonely for me there, and at times I would want to walk out or quit.. but I know at that time, even if we are away I can count on all you people to lift me up and again push me forward.. <3 u...